There is a woman who has it together on the outside and is quietly drowning on the inside.
This book is for her.
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Finding God in the Trenches
Finding God in the Trenches is a memoir of compounded grief told with the kind of honesty most people save for their closest friend and a bottle of wine at midnight.
Jen Conrad writes about losing her mother to COVID, a business collapse that took her identity with it, an adoption that crossed oceans and still couldn't come home, six military deployments, and the six years she spent numbing her way through all of it, one night at a time.
She is not writing from the other side of healing. She is writing from inside the process. And that is exactly what makes this book different.
Who this book is for
This book is for:
- —the woman who looks fine but feels like she is drowning
- —the woman grieving a loss she still has not fully processed
- —the woman who lost her mom and feels like part of her identity went with her
- —the woman who has used wine, busyness, scrolling, food, shopping, or over-functioning to cope
- —the woman who still believes in God but feels distant from Him
- —the woman who is tired of pretending she is okay
- —the woman who wonders if healing is still possible while she is still in the middle of the mess
Themes in the book
- Compounded grief
- Losing a mother to COVID
- Military family life
- Adoption grief
- Business loss and identity loss
- Alcohol and emotional numbing
- Faith after loss
- Surrender
- Rebuilding slowly
- Finding God in ordinary places
"Your book sits in the same category and feel as authors like Jennie Allen and Lysa TerKeurst, but with a more memoir-driven, raw edge."
He was in the trench the whole time.
So was she.
And so are you.
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After you read
If this book feels like your story, you do not have to walk through it alone.
Frequently asked questions
What is Finding God in the Trenches about?
Finding God in the Trenches is Jen Conrad's memoir about compounded grief, faith, emotional numbing, alcohol struggles, military family life, adoption grief, and finding God in the middle of loss.
Is Finding God in the Trenches a Christian book?
Yes. It is a faith-rooted memoir written for women who are wrestling with grief, questions, surrender, and whether God is still near in hard seasons.
Who should read this book?
This book is for women who feel like they are holding everything together on the outside but quietly falling apart inside.
Does the book talk about alcohol?
Yes. Jen writes honestly about using alcohol to numb grief and emotional pain, and what it has looked like to begin surrendering that coping pattern to God.
Is this book only for women who have lost their mother?
No. While Jen writes about losing her mother to COVID, the book is also for women carrying many forms of grief, identity loss, disappointment, and emotional exhaustion.
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