Finding God in the Trenches
There is a woman who has it together on the outside and is quietly drowning on the inside.
This book is for her.
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About the Book
Finding God in the Trenches is a Christian memoir of compounded grief, unshakable love, and the beauty that still remains. Written for the woman who looks like she is holding it all together but privately wonders where God was when everything fell apart, this book offers an honest story of faith, grief, military life, motherhood, adoption heartbreak, and finding God in hard seasons.
Jen writes about losing her mother to COVID, a business collapse that took her identity with it, an adoption that crossed oceans and still couldn't come home, six military deployments, and the six years she spent numbing her way through all of it, one night at a time.
She is not writing from the other side of healing. She is writing from inside the process. And that is exactly what makes this book different. Invite Jen to speak to your church, podcast, or women's ministry event.
Who this book is for
This book is for:
- —the woman who looks fine but feels like she is drowning
- —the woman grieving a loss she still has not fully processed
- —the woman who lost her mom and feels like part of her identity went with her
- —the woman who has used wine, busyness, scrolling, food, shopping, or over-functioning to cope
- —the woman who still believes in God but feels distant from Him
- —the woman who is tired of pretending she is okay
- —the woman who wonders if healing is still possible while she is still in the middle of the mess
Themes in the book
- Compounded grief
- Losing a mother to COVID
- Military family life
- Adoption grief
- Business loss and identity loss
- Alcohol and emotional numbing
- Faith after loss
- Surrender
- Rebuilding slowly
- Finding God in ordinary places
"Your book sits in the same category and feel as authors like Jennie Allen and Lysa TerKeurst, but with a more memoir-driven, raw edge."
What readers are saying
Early readers have helped Finding God in the Trenches reach a 5-star Amazon rating, with 50 copies sold in the first three weeks.
"So hard to put into words!"
This was one of the most raw things I have ever read in my life! Idk if it's because I walked so near by to a lot of this story or because it relates so well in so many ways to my own. I truly believe you will touch so many lives in so many ways with this Jen!!!! I have always looked up to you and loved walking some of this journey with you in deployments! I even more so now hold a profound respect for all you have realized and learned through this walk and finding him!!! You put into words so well how I have felt myself for so long!!! This should be a number one best seller no doubt!!! Thank you for putting into words exactly how grief feels and how to grow closer in that to Jesus!!! My heart is so unbelievably proud of my friend!!!!
ShanLeigh23
Kindle · Verified Purchase · May 22, 2026
"Truth"
This book is written by a woman I have known and loved for years. The truth she so bravely and poignantly wrote reveals the heart I have been blessed to know for a long time. I have been on the receiving end of her strength but also close enough to share in the vulnerability. The words she speaks are true, and they cut through the pretty package we try to wrap ourselves in. They speak of the God who can celebrate our triumphs but sees us in our weakness and dark moments. They speak of God who wants to hold us close when we fall apart and know the very specific ways in which he alone can put our broken pieces back together. Well done, my sister.
michelle conrad
Kindle · Verified Purchase · May 22, 2026
"Reader of Finding God in the Trenches"
I had the pleasure of reading this book when it was in the pre published stage and it's amazing!!! Written with such grace, vulnerability. Jen has found god and his grace in so many difficult and promising times. Great read very well written.
amanda
Kindle · May 20, 2026
He was in the trench the whole time.
So was she.
And so are you.
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If this book feels like your story, you do not have to walk through it alone.
Frequently asked questions
What is Finding God in the Trenches about?
Finding God in the Trenches is Jen Conrad's memoir about compounded grief, faith, emotional numbing, alcohol struggles, military family life, adoption grief, and finding God in the middle of loss.
Is Finding God in the Trenches a Christian book?
Yes. It is a faith-rooted memoir written for women who are wrestling with grief, questions, surrender, and whether God is still near in hard seasons.
Who should read this book?
This book is for women who feel like they are holding everything together on the outside but quietly falling apart inside.
Does the book talk about alcohol?
Yes. Jen writes honestly about using alcohol to numb grief and emotional pain, and what it has looked like to begin surrendering that coping pattern to God.
Is this book only for women who have lost their mother?
No. While Jen writes about losing her mother to COVID, the book is also for women carrying many forms of grief, identity loss, disappointment, and emotional exhaustion.
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